Today I want to highlight some of the great things recovery has brought to my life, and why you need to keep trusting even when everything seems dark. But with a couple of warnings, that aren’t meant to discourage you, but on the contrary, to help you not to give up even when you come across them.
When you think you have everything under control, it will attack you from where you least expect it
You can’t take anything for granted. So don’t be surprised, or at least don’t get frustrated, when suddenly a fire you thought was extinguished burns you again. It has happened to me especially when I’ve started to behave in a slightly prideful way, forgetting my total dependance on God’s grace. He has shown me many times that if it wasn’t for the mercy He is constantly pouring over me, I’d fall again and again.
You’ll have the most primitive thoughts again: such as clunky attacks of making me feel fat or like my stomach protrudes from my jeans, when it isn’t true, but I have that perception and it’s maddening…. that used to happen to me constantly in the beginning of recovery, and then I thought I had overcome it, but still some days it suddenly comes back.
You’ll fall in obvious things: such as reading triggering websites when you know they don’t do you any good, but you think that, bah, they aren’t going to affect you anymore…